 AM I REALLY ME?
by chymecindy
I sometimes asked myself,
Am I really me or someone else?
There are so many things I have to face,
So many pains I hide and leave no trace.
I think I’m weak, I think I’m strong,
I just couldn’t figure out what's right from wrong.
I did things both good and bad,
All things i thought would be good enough for me.
Life is great and amazing, i know.
I can barely breathe, it beats so fast.
All alone with memories and never ending fear.
Tell me please, forever this wouldn't last.
I want to laugh, I want to cry.
I want to see how beautiful the world is.
I want to fly freely like a bird,
But questions still remain, "Am i really me"? Writing again the love story of my life. I feel like giving up and sad at the moment. I don't know why things happened like this. We are in the process of preparing things to be together and it seems like the time is not with us. Time and things around us aren't supporting us. We both know that processing all this papers is not easy. But we can't just wait to be together again. It's hard being so far from each other. This LDR is really not good, i know since the start. But this guy is amazing and i love him that i wanted to be with him right now. But he's at the other side of the world that the only thing that connects us are the moon and the stars at night that we know we both watch at the same time. The moon and stars are the two witnesses of our love. Crying at night looking at the sky is not fun while missing him so much. I really hate that! I want to remain patient and strong. He looses hope already and i keep trying to remind him to keep holding on and be patient. We should trust God. Things are not easy. And these papers are not easy to prepare. We're running of time. The date we set to be together again is only 2 months away. And we're still not done with those papers. So many hindrances. So many trials. I know those are just trials and tests on how strong we are. I don't want to think we are not meant for each other. I hate to wait again. I have been waited this time for a long time now. And i don't want to just let it go without any fights. No! we should fight and we can do this.
I shouldn't have share this in public. I just can't hide it. I feel sad and empty. I don't know what to do. Does anyone encountered this same problem we had? I need some support :(
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NEVER BE APART
You make me happy,You make me smile.You make me believe,In every dream I dream at night.Time i spent with you,
Could never make me blue.
The two weeks of being together
Is like a life with you forever.
M emories of you and me,
Forever in my mind they'll be.
Time will come we'll meet again,
And will never be apart.
I will remember this time forever,
It will be my treasure.Till we see each other once again,
And we will never be apart again.
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Dear My Love,
I Wrote this for you.
I love you and i always will.
See you soon.
xoxo,
 I started my 101 goals in 1001 days list on June 11, 2010. This project is inspired by some of my blogging friends. I wanted to know how productive i am and how active i am in achieving my dreams and goals in life. It gives me inspiration to work hard and achieve them.
Today, i am going to share some updates and just so happy to share some goals i already completed. Here's some i just completed lately:
Based on the list's numbers:
7. To have a boyfriend.
11. Watch stars at night on the beach with my boyfriend.
28. Vacation in Boracay with friends or with a boyfriend. (done on Oct. 21-23, 2010)
51. Renew my passport.(done on July16, 10)
82. Have red nails both fingers and feet. (done 7-12-10)
To read my 101 in 1001 visit here.
Be inspired and start making your list now.
I cant believe its November already. How time flies too fast. Few days from now its Christmas. I'm counting days. I love Christmas and i love to spend it with my family.
Anyway, this past few days all i think about is how to get there with him. I miss the time we spent together and i just can't wait to be there. But so many things to do before that time comes. But i don't lose hope and I'm always be patient. Its all about patience and trust. I have to wait.
For now, i wanted to welcome November. And i hope this month is good for me. Next week is my sis birthday, and i have no idea what gift i can give her yet. Still thinking. Any ideas?
Last week, i cut my hair again. This is a few times already since i cut it very short last year. Before i cut it, my hair was so long and straight. And i used to love it so much. But later last year, a year from now to be exact i was convinced by a friend to try a short hair. So i did and had my hair cut very short. I love it at first. But some friends and colleagues didn't like it. So i was discouraged and felt depressed. I love long hair, but i wanted to try new look too. Having a short hair is a challenge. I love it of course. Just sometimes i miss my long hair and hated this short hair. It sounds crazy. But that's what i feel now. I miss my hair and i want it long again. I want it long just like in that photo. Oh! I feel so sad.
    All images from Gabriela Gattaneo. Visit her photostream here.  By Chymecindy In my everyday life, I remember how our life meld together, We keep strong and remain faithful, This love is real and we are blessed. Everyday all I see is you. You’re smile that is so sweet. Your look that makes me stopped. All I think about is… you! Sometimes I feel so alone, I feel like my world will be gone forever. And then I smile with open heart, And all I think about is… you! The love we used to share, All the love I am sending, The memories that will never vanish. I know there must be an ending. I dream only of your love, And happiness in our life, I try not to think of you, But when I close my eyes... All I think about is… you! image
    These are my new inspirations. So lovely! Images credit here.  BTW,
I had a very busy days lately. Working on graveyard shift is not that fun. But i like it. I was busy updating my homepage, hosting giveaway on this blog, featured a blogger and writing reviews on my other blog. What a busy blogging life. I feel like a full time blogger hehehe. Don't forget to ENTER my GIVEAWAY this week. Click this to enter. Good luck :)
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